Friday, January 30, 2009

Hold That Fish!

Hello Sweet Friends,
I'm sorry I did not get to blog yesterday it was one of those days that filled up quicker than I thought it would.

I need to get a little bit more organized in my thinking and duties. I let my husband down yesterday too. He had asked me to take something to school with me to fax. I forgot...really forgot...didn't even think of it again until he asked me about it this morning. I hated that look of frustration and disappointment on his face.

I need to start keeping my "Said" more by doing what I "said" I was going to do.

Today, I will not blog about Peter as I "Said," because God has laid this at my feet and wants to deal with it today.

I only have a few minutes before I have to go have my nerves deadened again in my back. This will put me out for the rest of the day and part of tomorrow. Please pray it works.

So often we casually or hafe-heartily say we will do something and then never follow through. Was I listening intently yesterday when Mike asked me to fax this stuff or did I give him what I call, a "Momma uh-huh." That uh-huh we give our kids when we are not really listening.

Mike and I have been through so much lately that there is just no excuse for my not listening. I need to be listening to him. He is hurting...we are hurting together.
He already has more of the burden to carry than I do. But truth is...I'm still thinking of myself. Pray that I will think of him too. Wallowing in self-pity is a poor excuse for any uncaring act.

I'm not a pig

I'm a Princess

A princess must take care of her duties, must care more for those she serves than for herself.

I love my prince.

I love my King more.

So, I ask for your prayers and your forgiveness for not keeping my "Saids" with you too.

I love you


Runner Mom said...

Hey! I'll be lifting you both up this morning in prayer! Hope that the procedure goes well. Take care!

Kay Martin said...

Hold on friend. I sense some grace from our loving
Father for one of His most favorite Princess daughters. You forgot some things while your mind is full to overflowing with major change and struggle: physical and emotional and probably spiritual.

You only forgot one thing...I'm impressed. Seeing light in the near future as I come through a major life change tunnel and testing I have had to have a steno pad with me at all times or I cannot count on remembering the smallest thing or the largest.

I honestly believe our minds can only hold so much. I have no apologies for my pad and everyone is accustomed to me thumbing through to clarify what I am doing, what I did, and what I promised to do ... and when.

Lighten up on yourself adn "fly" with the angels who do not take themselves seriously.

My prayer is that procedure is more than all you and the pysician are hoping for. Take good care of yourself.

Chatty Kelly said...

Don't let the devil get you down! He'd love for you to beat yourself up more and more. God removes it at far as the East from the West as soon as you confess & repent. So it's gone girl. Be free.

Sharon said...

Awwww don't worry we are not going anywhere, I know about the dissappoints, Praying for you and him, I pray your test went ok and there is no pain.
Have a blessed weekend

Golden~1 said...

Hey Pam,

I will continue to keep you and your family in prayer. With so much going on, it is easy to shelf some requests and needs of others while we experience so much of our own stuff.

I will also, pray that your healing comes soon. I want to see you in those pink heels and I have Faith in what HE can do for you.

Princesses wear them you know!


LynnSC said...

My sweet Tuesday... I have been praying for you all week. I pray that your appointment went well on Friday.

About the frustration and disappointment that you saw on his face when he realized that you didn't do what he asked you to do... Oh... I have seen that look before. It makes me feel like such a failure. I hate it. I want to scream out... but I did this.. and this... and this... but you are right... the truth of the matter is that I didn't follow through on what I said I would do. This is an area that I really want to improve as well. Thanks so much for bringing this to my mind again today... Thankfully there is grace for the both of us.

I think I will get off the computer and do the housework that I am suppose to be doing.

I hope to see you Tuesday. I love you girls so much!!