Today has been an anxious day because Mike's package went before the Army Chaplain selection board today. We won't know anything for a couple of days but I have to tell you it has been nerve racking! I jump every time the phone rings.
Friends, I woke up this morning filled with awe and fear. One second believing we are going to step into the Army like it is our own Promised Land and the next fearful Mike will be rejected and we will once again begin another run through the wilderness. As I'm praying, I hear a question, "Are you one of the 10 or one of the 2?"
"Are you one of the 10 or one of the 2? Do you believe God has called you to this promised land or are you fearful of the possible giants in the way?"
Truthfully I answered, "A little bit of both."
I want to be like the 2. The two spies who went to see the Promised Land and saw that it was good and that God had already given it to them, in Numbers 13-14. I want to shout with them "God has already given it to us! Now we must prepare to enter the land and possess this calling!"
I want to feel confident, but I can't help but notice that their are a few giants.
The 10 would say to me:
There is a giant called the selection board that only picks the top 60%
If you get past that one there is the giant task of getting your house ready to sell.
Then comes the giant of Mike being away at school 3 months.
Then the giant of moving to an army base, more than likely in another state!
There is the largest giant which will be leaving my family...my friends....my church...and my school!
These are big giants...but as I prayed and asked God to help me come down off the teeter-totter and decide if I am going to run and hide like the 10 or stand in faith like the 2...I remembered something....The LORD is your Banner. It is HE who goes before you.
That means...that even if the door is shut by the giants on the selection board God will be the Banner that leads us into our Promised Land.
It means that if we are selected...then I can know that I will not be the one facing the other giants...The LORD is my Banner! My Jehovah Nissi!
I am not a 10! I am a 2!
Keep praying for us. I'll let you know when we hear.
Love you Pamela