Monday, September 14, 2009

Ooops! That's Me Right There Beside Myself!

Hey Y'all,
The last few weeks have been a little wobbly. We all have been caught in a weird game of "Hopscotch" vs. "Twister" on the path of "Life". We still are waiting on the next direction from the Army. Will it be come get the physical and finish your packet? Will it be go get another allergy test? Or will it be Strike Three Your Out?!" We are praying it is the first one! Since neither Mike or I are working steadily full-time hours, this makes our balance over the finance dots precocious to say the least.

This weekend we were both trying to balance our faith and trust in God over these issues, with the question what is our next move? We went back and faith was up, so I could encourage him...His faith was up, so he could encourage me. Several times God reminded us of His faithfulness. From having some wonderful meals provided for us out of fellowship and generosity, to feeding our spirits as we went and worshipped at Thrive church with Lisa Whittle. The message along with the worship, stirred our hearts and challenged our minds to trust the One...we gave up all to follow. Thanks Pastor Scott! Coming home we talked about how we both take back those worries way to often, and don't truly let go of them in God's hands. We say we do with our heads. I believe to the best that we understand at the time, we do lay them there. But somewhere, we hear that we need to now act or do something and that's when we take it up again. Maybe it's because like the disciples of old, we do not think Jesus is acting fast enough. Or maybe like them, we are looking for Him to do something different. No matter the reason why I take it back up, the truth honestly comes down to trust. Trust His decision. Trust His timing. Trust His way.

We are trying again. TURST! TRUST! TRUST!

It isn't easy. Especially when new worries assail you everyday. Today, Zoie came home and had made an "F" on her first math test in 5th grade. She was crushed. The teacher is letting the class take a retest tomorrow. (She wasn't the only one. It's a new math textbook and they started out with expanded numbers and exponents. Actually makes my brain hurt.)

There is a verse that I have been holding onto and now I am memorizing. I actually posted about it in my last post.

Psalm 94:19 "In the multitudes of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delights my soul." NKJV

Last night I looked it up in the other translations

NLT---"When doubts filled my mind, Your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer."

The Message---"When I am upset and beside myself, You calm me down and cheer me up!"

Wow! God doesn't just want to take care of our anxieties, doubts or what sets us beside ourselves! He WILL CHEER US UP!

So tonight, as I am bombarded with the doubts about our future, Zoie's grades and feeling beside myself. I'm going to look to the one who is always beside me, in front of me, behind me, and in me! The ONE TRUE GOD...MY HOPE...MY LOVE...and MY CHEER.


Hey! I'm a smiling already! (*_*)
Love ya


My ADHD Me said...

I don't know about you, but I struggle helping my 8th grader with homework and sometimes it was even confusing when he was in elementary. More than once I would try to explain something to him and he would say, "That's not how we're supposed to do it".

Regina said...

Thanks for that post Pamela, it is just what I needed today. Not only does He want to take my worries from me, He wants to GIVE me JOY, and CHEER. That is just too awesome to comprehend. I got my hands wide open today ready to recieve it. Love ya. . . see you tonight.

Kay Martin said...

Bless you. Last night I re-read an old book by Andrew Murray, Jesus Himself. In this book Murray calls us at all times to focus on Jesus the Christ. I've had some new challenges. I am having to remind myself in His Presence all has to bow.

Know we pray for you and Mike...often.

mpz3 said...

Hey Baby,

Together we will continue to trust no matter what. Praise God that He continues to keep our hearts from going out of control. In the midst of those anxieties, He is always there to not only comfort but to cheer us on...because the phrase...but God...always stands.

Mrs. CP said...

Pamela are you guys waiting on a waiver to go to MEPS or has he already been to MEPS for his physical and is waiting on a final waiver? I'm asking because CP had to get a waiver before MEPS would see him. And when you wrote earlier that he was denied a waiver, did you mean he was denied the chance to go to MEPS without a waiver or had you already sought a MEPS visit waiver? Ok, that was as clear as mud, I know!! Just trying to figure out where you are in the process. We'll continue to pray for you guys. We know how you feel!!

Jules from "The Roost" said...

PERFECT verses for worries & anxious thoughts. Thanks so much for giving those in different translations. VERY helpful :)

Edie said...

Oh Pamela I am right there with you. Sometimes I can't help but see the waves out of my peripheral vision even when I'm looking at Jesus.

Most often I can see the Red Sea in the distance and battle with the thoughts of wondering what I am going to do when I reach the water's edge. I know the answer is Trust God. This is working out our Faith. He promises to meet all our needs according to His riches in glory.

Beverlydru said...

I love your title. How many times do I find myself beside myslef?? Lots! Twister indeed. Prayers for the doors HE opens and NO MAN can shut.