Saturday, October 11, 2008

Prayers and Friends are Welcome Here

Hi Ladies,
I have been reading a lot of you who are doing the "Behind The Eyes" study by Lisa Whittle. I read the book this summer and it was the first and only non-fiction book of that type I have ever read word for word.

I am Mrs. Confidence.

I wear a mask all the time. I will get brave and take one off only to find like evil villains in old Saturday Morning Shows as a kid that another one is there.

But God is now removing them. I am being more real with people than I ever have in my life. I am amazed at how real I have been with you here in bloggyland. I once thought it was because I'm not really facing you. I may never meet you face to face. And if I did then well, you would already know me and have made your decision to like me or not. But the more I have searched my heart and what God is doing I don't think that is the real reason. I believe that God is teaching me through you to be vulnerable and to trust.

So here's the deal, I will continue and promise (Ask Zoie I never promise) to be real with you. I will trust you. I will pray for you and be a friend you can come visit with here. I only ask one thing in return. Pray for me.

All that being said, please continue praying for my Aunt Lily and her family. She is still hanging on right at death's door for almost a week now. It is hard on her family. Thank you for your encouraging comments and prayers for Zoie as she prepares to sing at the funeral. Mike too. His style of music is more on the contemporary side, while he is being requested to sing an old Southern Gospel song. He is doing a great job. I told him to reach down inside of himself and find that inner country singer. He is 6'3 and I think he had to reach all the way down to his little toe, but he sounds great! Want to know a secret....I think he kind of likes it too...shhhh don't tell him I said that!

Continue to pray for my health. I am going back to the doctor on Monday regarding some female issues I am having. I am still having some back pain and it looks like I might have to give in and have that third shot after all....yuck! Also I have been having headaches. Powerful headaches on one side of my head. They only last for a few seconds but then come back again. So any of you out there with medical knowledge know what that might be let me know.

Lastly I want to to pray for me as I seek God about where we are going to be serving Him as a family. We have finished the intensive application for church planting and are now waiting/hoping to have an interview soon. Pray that God will make our way clear. I am so impatiant. I am a planner when it comes to my future. But I fly by the seat of my pants when it comes to the day to day.

Please pray for us. I will keep trying to be real and share with you what I feel about God each week. I do love you.



Beverlydru said...

It is an honor and a privelege to pray for you.

Kimberly said...

I love how we are able to pray for women we don't really "know". I love knowing that the Father knows you, sees you, delights in you, right at this moment...and even though I may never meet you this side of heaven, I don't have to ever see you to lift you up to the One who is more than enough for each of us.
Praying for you and your family!
Love and prayers,
K :)

Chatty Kelly said...

Pamela - I know exactly what you mean. I haven't read that book, but I suspect I am Mrs. Confidence too. But every time I keep it real, is when I touch the most people. People can relate to real. They often can't relate to "confidence." Thanks for sharing.

Praying for you now. Keep keeping it real!

Nicole said...

Your vulnerability and realness is contagious! Like you said the Lord wants us to take our masks off. People feel intimidated around people who are Ms Confidence. I know this because I used to be her. I know desire with ALL my being to be real and vulnerable. It gives me a sense a peace with knowing who I truly am even if it hurts. A little pain never hurt noone. I don't want to be whimpy...instead I am strong in the Lord!!!

I have some medical knowledge as I am a medical assistant. Not sure that I can tell you for sure what your headaches are from but...Did they start after your injections???

Praying for you my friend.


Edie said...

Of course I'll pray for you and for your family. Thanks for being honest and transparent. I find that very hard to do also but working on it in a balanced way. This may take a lot of practice. Love ya!

Kay Martin said...

Reading through today's post I must advise you to be very kind to yourself. If you feel like a nap when you usually don't need one: take it.

Your aunt's situation; the musical challenges for your family for the upcoming homecoming of your aunt, the possible upcoming new assignment, and your health.

I know you are wise, educated and enlightened in all good ways: that is a mighty long list of important matters on one person's shoulders. Be kind and gentle with yourself as you navigate these challenges and transitions.

I'm learning this late in life. How I wish I could have comprehended the people telling me to be kind to myself while I was pouring out to others.

I will pray for all of write so well, I'm there in all your posts!!!

desertgal said...

I have been and will continue to pray for you and your husband. How exciting to be moving to the next step of the job process. However, don't downplay the related stress of this wonderful experience. Add to that your health have a very full plate!

Your headache pain...could be stress, but was wondering??? Have you had an eye exam in the past year? That could be a contributing factor.

Anyway, watch the amount of caffeine intake and take a nice long bubble bath every so often. It does wonders for all the aches, pains and tension.

Pinkshoelady said...

Hey there desertgal,
I have just had an eye exam but it could be stress.

I am going to mention it to my OBGYN on Monday.

Thanks for praying please keep it up.


recovered said...

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Kristen Myers said...

Oh Girl. I wish I could come scoop you up and take you to Starbucks. You would have to order decaf, just in case your headaches are stress related.

Definitely praying for you tomorrow as you go to the doctor.

By the way, thank you for being honest and telling us all so we can be there for you in Spirit and in prayer.

Thank you also for your sweet comments on my blog. Your encouragement means so much.

Love ya,

Elizabethd said...

Praying for you, Pamela.
The prayer suport one receives from unseen friends is so rewarding, and i am grateful for it. We dont need to be physicaly there to pray for each other.

Beverly said...

I've just started reading this book and I can't wait to see what God has in store for me through it. And know that I am praying for you.